Bad move. I was so wrong.
I'm not going to deny that all of those Paleo/Primal brownies, cookies, cakes, and chocolate- or fruit-based dishes are amazing... because they're so delicious! But what I realized right away last year is that if you give me any of those, I can't just have one-- I'll eat half the tray! Or I'll finish off an entire dark chocolate bar or bag of nuts or bowl of fruit... and then feel disgusting afterward and say I won't do that ever again. But guess what? I do do it again, and I end up in a vicious cycle. All of these sweets have reawakened my former food-addicted self, which is something I've tried very hard to suppress these last 2.5 years, and I can't live like that anymore. Even starches (such as sweet potatoes and yams) will trigger me to go insane, because my body goes, "OMG SWEETNESS! EAT! KEEP EATING!" It needs to stop! I had all of these habits under control, but when I gave myself an inch, I took a marathon. I've gained weight (and if I look at anything other than a plant or animal, I put on weight), my acne is back, and I just feel gross.
So it's time to stop the baked goods/desserts, starches, nuts, and fruits. Yes, they're certainly better than eating non-Primal foods (i.e. things with gluten, sugar, and other toxic ingredients), but they're still not optimal for health. I also need to stop snacking while I'm at it (I've noticed that I only snack when I'm eating a lot of sweet foods throughout the day). So no more trigger foods! I'm still-- and always will be-- a food addict, so I should know better by now not to let myself touch things that set me off. (You'd think I would've learned a year ago when I first realized the addiction never went away, but nope. I got back into the I'll start tomorrow mentality that's been going on ever since.)
This is the "MyPlate" I'll be sticking with from now on:
Animals and plants! I can do that! I've done it before, and I can do it again... assuming I can get that self-control back in order, and learn to only eat when I need to, and not because I'm bored or emotional or because it's in the house. As much as I love all of the yummy baked goods that the Paleo blogosphere has to offer, my health comes first... and optimal health for me doesn't include anything even remotely sweet. (If you're in my position and like timed challenges, check out the Whole30 or 21-Day Sugar Detox from Balanced Bites!)
Quote of the Day:
"If you're happy, you eat. If you're sad, you eat. You lose a job, you eat. You get a job, you eat. It's, you know, it's addiction." -Barbara Cook